December Newsletter: Time Passages
In his theory of relativity, Einstein determined that time is relative, or – in other words – the rate at which time passes depends on your frame of reference. This is the time of year we tend to review what has transpired and reflect on what has unfolded over the past 12 months.
Time is a construct that humans have created to measure events and navigate life AND it can also be a human illusion of the rate at which we need to achieve and get things done. But when we look at time through a different lens, it can also be a portal for spiritual growth and self-mastery.
There are no constraints here. Life is a journey that has a different rate for each of us and it is not a race.
I often think about how when life tumbles me, I feel a moment of panic. I want to get out of the fear of being lost in the spin as fast as possible. I want to cling to something that will help me feel safe and it is in these moments that letting go of the grip and leaning into the spin, letting go of the illusion of time, that I find my way to solid ground.
When I was a little girl, my sister had a rock tumbler that took these rough jagged rocks and slowly tumbled them into polished stones that were smooth and glowing. I was fascinated by how something so violent and chaotic could reveal such beauty if you practiced patience.
I have spinned many times in the same place until I was ready to get my lesson.
We all get tumbled and rocked around by living life and it can bring up our prickly places. We can run from the hurt or hunker down in stubbornness, but it will always find us. When we get curious about what is being tossed about, it can help soften our edges of defence and release patterns of internalized violence. We can find another way for the fear to move so we don’t cling to the harshness of stories that are not ours to carry.
When I started on my wellness journey, I quickly realized that I lived in a culture that was sick with fear and scarcity. It seemed many signals I was taking in were saying “be at war with yourself, you are not enough and the secret to happiness is external and really unattainable”. I knew it was upon me to unlearn programmed stories and recalibrate with true love and acceptance.
When I turned 30, someone asked how I felt about getting old. What?! I knew at that moment that I was not going to carry the warped belief that life sucks as I get older. Yes, we all age and yes, we will eventually leave our bodies – those facts are non-negotiable – but one thing we can change is our perception of aging. We can see it as a prison that we entrap ourselves in OR an adventure that expands our lives into new territory.
Flash forward decades, I am so grateful I did the work to unpack those old beliefs and rewire new ones. The truth is, there is beauty at every age and every season gets brighter the more we wash away the imprints of limited beliefs.
Dance with your shadows and befriend them. Let them tumble you into a spin of sacred understanding of your inner light. They are full of wisdom and help you reclaim your power. Every time you give yourself away to others' judgment of you, your radiance dims.
The holidays can carry a bag of mixed feelings, it is not merry and bright all the time and past imprints of grief and sadness may surface. Try to meet yourself here with open arms and allow your inner light to brighten because you choose to befriend your wounds. I have found wisdom from these tender places when I have allowed myself to soften and open.
Understand your lessons, own your truth, and celebrate your light. This is a love that never fades. Time may not heal everything, but it can be a passageway home to the center of your precious light.
The truth is, you are LOVE and you are LOVED.
It has taken many heartaches to crack me open to this undying love. I live here way more than I don't. When I waiver, I remember what I seek, is seeking me. What I desire in my heart, desires me back.
Today as I finish this newsletter, I turn 58. I celebrate my light and all the love I have gleaned from every misstep and mistake. My shadows are no longer scary, they delight me with gifts of wisdom when I stay true to my heart and soul.
I am grateful for each one of you and how we support and celebrate each other on this journey of life and love.
Wishing you love and blessings as we bring the year to a close.
Xx,
Mia